The rain pours as I sip my hot coffee
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Minggu, 20 Februari 2022
The Unsightly
Afterglow
Standing here watching the sun set
The afterglow colors me red
And as the wind blows
I wonder when was the last time I enjoy this moment
Though we step on a different way
Our hearts stay here together
As the memories last
Before our future that we chase
At times I feel the void in my chest
As I run on pebbles in my way
Knowing you are not here beside me
But remembering our promise on that afterglow
Gave me strength to keep going
Oh friend I wonder if we ever stand side by side ever again
After we step chasing the divers dream that we aim
But I'm sure you all give your all
And probably have the same void that I have
So at least let me do the same
So that one day when we ever meet again
We will shine brighter
Than the afterglow we seen back then
Bintang di Sisi Bulan
Sudah senja ketika ku terjaga
Rerumputan yang memerah
Hangatnya jingga menerpa
Tidak... itu kalian yang menggenggam
Dan senyum yang tak akan terlupa
Selama ini hanya bulan yang mendengar
Kini aku sadar bahwa selalu ada bintang di sisinya
Mungkin karena aku terjaga
Aku malah jadi buta karenanya
Kalian selalu di sana
Meski ku abaikan
Meski ku lupakan
Aku tidak paham
Aku bahagia
Namun air mata ini jatuh
Membasahi wajah dan bibirku
Setelah sekian lama mencari
Ku temukan tempat tuk kembali
Meski tak selalu cerah hari kita
Bahkan jika badai yang datang
Aku yakin bisa bangkit berdiri
Karena kalian disini
Menggenggamku
Dan meyakinkanku
Bahwa aku tidak sendiri
Selepas Hujan
Di depan pintu ku terduduk
Melihati tetesan-tetesan dari genting
Terlihat langkah-lagkah yang berwarna
Satu langkah... dua langkah...
Ku coba menghitung namun tak sampai
Bukan... bukan aku kehilangan arah
Namun warna-warna memenuhi pandang
Seperti sebuah taman bunga
Semua nampak berwarna
Merah, biru, kuning, toska
Hanya aku saja
Yang tak berwarna
Kelabu bagai langit lepas hujan
Tidaknya bermuram durja
Hanya terasa ruang di dada
Yang dingin menyebar ke seluruh badan
Mungkin ini semua karena hujan
Aku jadi teringat suatu hal
Seperti saat langit menjadi gelap
Aku mengecup lembut bibir dinginnya
Perlahan dan perlahan
Hingga hujan pun terasa hangat
Saat tubuhku melayang...
Bebas di langit-langit kamar
The Unforgiving
In the blank of the day
I wrapped inside a white box
Of my own world
That my mind created unconsciously
Though I don’t understand
Why such pure white room exist
Inside this dirty and filthy me
So I just sit there staring at nothingness
While being idle as I hear nothing but my
heartbeat
This anxiety grow bigger than ever
Making my heart race yet I’ve never been this
relaxed
Such contradicting
I can’t even understand this state of me any
longer
The white that is pure looking scary
As its’ purity has always been why I’ve been I
Throwing and splashing myself with dirt
Making me dirty yet less scared
I am not pure and clean to begin with
I never was
In the end I can do nothing and being helpless
Staring at this pure white has becoming a
torture
A hell for some dirty bumpkin kid like me
And yet as if I see the white has smiled
toward me
It gave me shiver and in no time I ried to run
Yet as if someone chasing bringing nothing but
warmth
But still I am scared
Of the pure white in this box like room
Of the forgiveness I don’t deserve